Is My Life A Waste?

Dec 30, 2008 by

Lord, Jesus, I cry out to you, with the feeling my life has been a waste. The church and Christianity have turned out very different than I was led to believe, or dreamed about on my own. Serving in the church is so different than what they taught at Bible College. I wasn’t expecting to be attacked. I wasn’t expecting to be victimized by members. I sure wasn’t planning on being dumped half way through my career. Why do I feel like such a failure? I know in your eyes I have always tried to serve faithfully and honestly. I know in your eyes, my heart is pure and I have done the best job I could with the gifts I have. I know you will never leave me or forsake me. Lord, thank...

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Confusion

Dec 30, 2008 by

Help me Lord, I’m so confused. It is very hard right now, Lord. I’m confused and so is my mate. We never dreamed we would be in this situation, worn out from ministry and disillusioned. We are feeling very confused. Yet, we do know you are aware of all things, and you have your plans for us and our service to you. Help us to put away our own illusions and expectations, and just surrender to your spirit. Help us to find rest in you, Lord. We trust you to work out the details in the months ahead. We trust you to provide in the weeks ahead. We ask you and thank you for helping us make wise decisions this very day. This is your Kingdom, your plan, your family. Even though we feel...

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Wife In Pain

Dec 30, 2008 by

Father, I feel my husband’s pain. I live with his anger, discouragement, and depression every day. Why is this happening to us, to him, and to me? I feel like a ship out on the open sea in a storm, without a rudder or power to get back to shore. I don’t know what to do except cry out to you, day and night. I’m looking for the answer that you will give. I thank you, Lord, that you are here for me. I don’t always feel you are close. I feel abandoned by my husband, my friends, my church, and even my family. But I know you are here. I know you experienced the feelings of betrayal and rejection during your darkest hour on this earth. You know exactly how I feel at...

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Provision

Dec 30, 2008 by

Right now mere survival is challenging, Father. I thank you for being the God of provision. My family is in need, Lord, and my children are starting to have fears about the future. We never expected to be in this position. We don’t know if we will ever be in fulltime ministry again, and yet we need to take care of bills and provide for the children. Thank you, Lord for your promise to never leave us or forsake us. Thank you for always taking care of us in the past, and seeing us through every trial and test in the past. Now we call out to you in our time of need and ask and thank you for your future provision. You are our source of all good things. You are the source...

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Rest

Dec 30, 2008 by

Father, I am worn out, fed-up, ticked-off and totally exhausted. I confess I have tried everything to succeed at this Christian walk. I have followed all the counsel my colleagues have given; I have been to dozens of conferences; read hundreds of books; bought hundreds of tapes. I have tried, and tried and tried, and now I feel at the total end of myself. Thank you for bringing me to the complete end of my own ideas and efforts. Thank you, Lord, for letting me walk right into burnout. You really do know what you are doing and you really are a God of love. Now, my Lord, please help me to understand the concept of resting. Please make Matt. 11:28 far more clear to me. Teach me and coach me regarding rest in...

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Forgive My Anger

Dec 30, 2008 by

Father, some days I do well and feel ok, and I worship you and love you, but on other days, the anger deep inside of me boils to the surface. I hate the ministry some days. I hate your people even more on some days. And, as you well know, Lord, there have been days when I have screemed my lungs out at you in rage and discouragement. Thank you, my Lord, for being so patient with me. It hurts when your children attack me and treat me this way. I have learned over the years that religious people are the meanest people on this earth. You, Lord Jesus, certainly found that out. I praise you for all the strength you have given me over the past several weeks. Thank you for your love...

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